An Introspective Day

Despite feeling more than a little introspective, today has been very productive for me.  I got a paiinting ready to be mailed and shipped it off to a customer.  My merch was in a mess, so I sorted it all out and got it much tidier.  I also bought groceries as well.  I was going to paint today, but I worked on the employees' payroll instead.

Good for me.

All day long I kept thinking about the dream I had last night.  My mom was alive in the dream, and I was visiting her at her condo.  Her mind seemed to be getting more and more vague and scattered, and I did my best to stop her from doing anything silly or dangerous.

I awoke with a jolt, and the first thing that popped into my mind was: See, you couldn't have done anything to prevented Mom from dying.  Somethings are out of your hands ....

I know this is true, without a doubt. So, why did my mind think it was necessary to tell me this fact at 3am?

Talk about a rude awakening!