Thursday, April 30, 2015

Feeling Verrrrrrrrrry Grumpy

I'm sorry.   I've had a very troubling day, and I feel grumpy and depressed.

Tomorrow will be better.

Hopefully ....

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Boneshaker Beer

The day ended with a fun meal at Hair of the Dog with friends and a bottle of Boneshaker Beer.

Thank god cool, great, fantastic, and brilliant friends! And, thank god for patio weather!

Monday, April 27, 2015

Starting 3 New Paintings!

I'm on fire, people! Three paintings at one time!  Woo-hoo!

If only my internet had the same energy levels as me ....

Sunday, April 26, 2015

A Very Busy Sunday Afternoon

Kelly was here from 11am to 4pm.  During that time, I had breakfast, answered emails/texts, and updated my finances.  Laundry was done and the bed was made, and I began a poem.

And then, Chloe came for her training shift.  Hershey and Rascal seemed to give their approval.

Lucy was here too, and then Laura came with her new dog Stuie.  He is seriously adorable!

We (except for the pets, of course) all had pizza and beer.  We chatted and watched clips of Last Week Tonight.  

All in all, it was a good day!

Friday, April 24, 2015

A WAY Better Day!

I didn't paint or write poetry as I had planned.

Instead, I:

  • Had a shower
  • Finished all of my financial work
  • Had an Osteopathic treatment, and a short nap afterwards
  • With Amy's help, I sent out emails inquiring about my eligibility in applying for certain art grants.
  • Asked Dobrila to pick up a few groceries and my prescription refillls
  • Picked up my logo/company name plaque

It was such a productive day, and I'm in a much better frame of mind!

Thursday, April 23, 2015

Stuck With Admin Work

It's rainy and dismal outside.  I keep catching myself dozing off.  My muscles and joints hurt like bastards.

I yearn to focus upon something artistic - a new painting, or write the poem that has been struggling to emerge for days - but I know I need to do some admin work before I can start anything like that.

Oh bloody hell!  I see snow!

Oh well ... maybe there's sunshite and paint in tomorrow's future!

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Keep on Smiling Until You Feel it!

Counselling Wednesday ....

As usual, I talked about Rob and about Mom, how I still missed them so terribly. They had both been so close to me that losing them was like having parts of my soul torn away.

I also talked about how the death of my friend Helen Henderson affected me.  Not only had Helen been a friend, she'd also spoken out for people with disabilities, making sure that their voices were heard, their rights met.  It upsets me that such a wonderful person like Helen had to leave this Earth, especially with all of the cuts to funding and the negative attitudes towards people with disabilities.

As with the loss of Rob and Mom, Helen's death has left me feeling like a chink of armour has fallen onto the ground.  And yet, with another vulnerable spot exposed, I must remind myself that I am not totally defenseless.

I told my counsellor about the birthday party.

And, I showed pictures of my new spring dress too.

I explained to my counsellor that a lot of the time, since Mom and Rob's death, I feel both sad and ... somehow off-kilter.  However, by having birhday party for my cats; buying pretty dresses; and, entering my paintings into galleries and festivals I can perhaps trick myself into being truly, consistantly happy.

Keep on smiling until you feel it, that's what I say!

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Another Painting Finished

Another painting is finished.  I call it LuLu in My Old Bedroom.

LuLu was the family cat, and she used to come into my bedroom and sit on the window sill. I have fond memories of LuLu and growing up in that house, in that room.

I can still see crab apples falling from the tree outside my window; still smell the aroma of coffee brewing from the kitchen;  and, hear the sweet tones of my mother's voice calling everybody to breakfast.

Painting is definitely the best!

Monday, April 20, 2015

Working a Double

I was ill on Saturday, so I didn't get to go to the market.

Now, after a busy day of shopping and interviewing a person to be a possible new employee, I'm painting again.

I'm doing two paintings at once. I'm so full of energy!

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Happy Birthday, Boys!

Happy Birthday, Boys!

I can't believe you're nine years old today. My boys are growing up so fast! In cat years you're a year or two older than I am now.

For nine years, I've loved  you; doted on you; cared for you; and obseessed about you.  No wonder! Besides being cute and cuddly, you're also funny; sweet; and, emotionally supportive.

I loved you as kittens, and now in middle age, and I'll love you forever! You're my boys, my jesters, my comfort providers, and my muses.

I love you two!