Tuesday, April 7, 2015

That's Good and That's Too Bad Part II

Like I said, yesterday was super busy.  I picked up new merch at the post office; bought a lot of art supplies; and, bought groceries at Loblaws.

At College Park, I got some supplements at the health food store and more art supplies at the dollar store. I also bought a pink luggage strap at a store that sold bags etc.

It was a good day, a fun day.  And yet - especially when I was at  College Park - ghosts kept following me around!  That's good.  Sure.  I miss Mom and Rob so much.  I wish I could see, hear, touch them all the time.

It's good that I can feel the presence of the people I love, have memories of them float through my head.  I cherish those moments.

And yet, it's kind of bad too.  I mean, when I went to the luggage store I had to take several deep breaths and try to puah away the memories of when my mom had her first heart attack and collapsed there.  And even now I can"t go past Metro or Tim Hortons witjout feeling a pang of sadness and anxiety. The luggage store makes sense because something terrible happened there but I don't know why I have these same feelings towars places where we had fun.

Well, tomorrow is my counselling appointment-maybe she can figure me out!

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