Sunday, July 3, 2016
WARNING GRAPHIC CONTENT
Bloody G-Tube! Literally. When I changed the dressing this morning, there was a bit of discharge (which is, unfortunately, typical) and some blood coming from the opening. And, as usual, redness around the opening from constant chafing. It was a lot more red today, though!
I took photos of everything to show both the visiting nurse and my family doctor, but I won't post them here because they look a little grotesque.
Excuse my venting, but I'm kind of fed up with the whole G-tube thing! I may smile and act bravely, but I have pain in my ribs constantly, and it gets worse when I paint, work on the computer, or if I even chat for a long-ish time. Of course, I grin and bear the pain because I want to live my life the way I want!
However, there are things I just can't do because of the G-tube. I can't do fine detail work on my paintings because I need to cross my arms over my torso and the G-tube is in the way. I can't sleep without sleeping pills because I sleep on the side where my G-tube is located. And, since I'm being "graphic" here, I can't even use my vibrator! Now that really sucks!!!
Do doctors think about such things or even care? No! Bastards! And, if they had put any thought into giving me this horrid procedure in the first place it might have occurred to them that this woman has Cerebral Palsy, a condition which makes her movements spastic, she might inadvertently whack herself where her G-tube is occasionally. I don't do it often but when I do it's so painful.
Doctors, generally speaking, are ableist shmucks who think people like me sit in one place all the time and don't have lives. Hell, they were amazed that I actually ate orally for 57 years!
They coerced and practically bullied me into getting the G-tube. If they don't remove it soon, I'm going to do the same thing to them. Remember the TV movie "Network" where the guy yelled out the window, "I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore!"? That's me.